I can’t wait to get into bed.
Today I was sitting on the edge of my bath doing my makeup, and I happened to look down at my legs.
I have a freakin’ gap between my thighs! I’m not talking a little one either, I’m talking a wide one running all the way up to my knees!
I did a little dance in my bathroom. Just a little one :’D
I love you Jillian Michaels.
I keep having these little panics at work, particularly while i’m walking in and out.
It’s probably just the crowds of people there that get to me sometimes. I remember my counsellor looking somewhat confused when I told her I didn’t want to be seen. A lot of the time I do just wish I could be invisible.
I still have a way to go to get over my anxiety, though sometimes I think it will always just be part of who I am, and I just need to make peace with it rather than trying to battle with it.
I finished day #3 of the 30 day shred today, and boy, am I sore. I’ve been walking around like a zombie the past few days because my calves and thighs are sore when I walk - which is great, because it means it’s working!
Just finished Day 1 of Jillian Michaels’ 30 Day Shred. I’m a bit wobbly and it was hard (especially towards the middle) but I managed to keep up, which I’m actually quite proud of. I’m so determined to complete the 30 days.
Anyone else had good experiences with the Shred?
this morning i did a few km’s on the treadmill. at the same time, my brother was sitting on the couch on his laptop eating a piece of chocolate cake.
this gave me the incentive to run that extra minute, knowing that i’m changing my body and health for the better. that last minute kicked my arse, but god it felt amazing.
i’ve told three friends i’m trying to get fit and loose weight. they all said something along the lines of, “you’ve got nothing to loose!” i know they’re just trying to be kind, but i hate it when people say this!
i’d rather them just say, “great! i can’t wait to see how you do!”
last night was difficult. i went into the city for a friend’s 21st and i was nervous. i’d forgotten how much i hate walking through busy bars and have people look at me, and the awkward conversations with people i don’t know.
it reminded me of how far i still have to go. but, i have to keep reminding myself that i just need to take little steps. and the fact i went out at all was a step in the right direction.
